I am walking almost a mile everyday. I have been walking around the block. Every morning I take my fiance to work and then come home and take my puppy dog out for a walk. My puppy Ellie has motivated me so much during these past couple months, there have been days when I come home and I just want to go back to bed, I am sore and achy and don't want to walk around the block. But then I come home and see Ellie and how excited she is to go out for a walk and I can't let her down. Ellie is the one who pushed me to go around the block in the first place. I walked her to the end of the road and she wanted to go further. So she pulled and pulled until I walked further. I have her to thank for how far I have come. She pushed me to be a better version of myself.
I have a goal to reach 100 lbs lost before I have weight loss surgery. I am hoping that right now I am around 50 lbs lost but I will be able to confirm that June 10th.
There is not a day that goes by that it isn't a battle. I constantly think about what I am eating and sometimes almost to the point where I am obsessive over it. I also feel very guilty when I do break down and eat something that I know I am not supposed to eat like a sweet or junk food. It has also been a process to try to fight the urge to eat when I am stressed out. I am so used and programmed to just reach for food to comfort myself. So fighting that urge has been hard at times. But I have won the battle more times than I have lost. I also have to constantly remind myself that if I do give in and have a little something, I can get back on the wagon the next day. A lot of self talk takes place each day, reminding myself that I am normal, and nobody can be perfect and eat healthy 365 days a year. It is allowing myself to fail but keep going.
I am still drinking protein shakes for breakfast and lunch, I not only find that they fill me up but they are much more convenient. I am still on the path to have weight loss surgery. I meet with the surgeon on June 17th at Humber River Regional Hospital. I then go to my trio appointments July 21st, where I meet with the Social Worker, Dietitian and Nurse. I am hoping that if everything goes well I will hopefully have an approval for surgery by the fall sometime. I am also going for a sleep study in August to see if I have sleep apnea.
Oh and I also can't stress how important having a Fitbit has been. My Fitbit Flex has kept me pretty motivated to keep walking as well. I constantly try to outdo my previous day totals.
I am going to start weight training soon and am thinking of joining the YMCA shortly so that I can actually go to the gym and work out. I need to add activity to my day. Walking was a great start but I need to do some more if I want to get to the results I want.
"Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough" -Og Mandino
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