Friday, February 20, 2015

Everyday is a Winding Road....

So it took me a long time to decide if I was going to show you all this.  These pictures are valid proof of how far I have let myself slide. How much anguish and pain I have been in to eat myself to this point.  I wasn't even going to take these pictures because honestly, I didn't want to face it.  But guess what, I do want to face it.  I am sick of hiding! I am tired of being ashamed.
I AM A WORK IN PROGRESS.  I am walking, no not far, right now it is laps around my apartment, I aim to do at least 5 minutes a day.  Which is better than when I was laying in a depressive vegetative state on the couch.  I am also eating at the most 2500 calories a day. That is at the most 2500 calories most of the time I am aiming to stay between 1500-2000 calories.  I have not had ANY junk food for the past 2 weeks.  I am making changes.  I am trying to follow a low glycemic food list. I am going to add weight lifting and floor exercises to my routine to try and strengthen my back, every other day, and also try to push myself to walk 5 minutes everyday.  I am trying.  I am still not smoking as well.  I also am portioning out and measuring my food.

I AM TRYING.  It doesn't seem like much I know, but it will in time help me lose weight and it will help me right now get on track and prepare for the surgery.  I am still planning on having weight loss surgery.
I am going to start blogging more, so that I can share this journey with people, so that you can take from my story what you will.  I am becoming accountable for my actions.

So here is what a typical day of eating now looks like for me:

1/2 cup All Bran
1 Iogo yogurt cup
1 medium Granny Smith apple

1 Can of Tuna
1 1/2 cups of Dole classic iceburg salad
1 TBSP Kraft Italian Dressing (Calorie wise)
3 TBSP Unsalted roasted sunflower seeds

2 cups of Green beans
2 TBSP of Kraft Italian Dressing (Calorie Wise)

Boneless, Skinless Chicken breast (4 oz)
2 TBSP Homemade Guacamole
Mashed Sweet potato
1 1/2 cups of Dole classic iceburg salad
1TBSP Kraft Italian Dressing (Calorie Wise)
3 TBSP Unsalted roasted sunflower seeds

2 cups Baby Carrots
4 TBSP PC Medium Salsa

That is my day usually of eating now.  I also try to drink about 2L of water.  I drink a couple coffees as well with 1% milk, no sugar.  Or I drink decaf Green Tea.  I am going to be cutting caffeine pretty soon because you have to for the surgery anyways and I may as well start now.
I have been watching what I have been eating for approx a month now (27 days).  My boyfriend also got me a Fitbit Flex which has been motivating me to walk a bit more than normal.
But with all that said, here are my pictures.  I was weighed the last time in December just before the holidays and I was 604 lbs.  I do not know what I weigh now.  I am hoping under 600 lbs.  But I will get there. I know it will not happen over night.  I am trying and that is all that matters.

First set of pictures taken 02/19/2015

I am trying, and I will eventually succeed.


Lisa Harris said...

awesome way to go, behind you all the way. If you need to chat send me a facebook message im here if you need me (Lisa Harris) not sure if it will post my name or not. I am proud of what you are doing and im sure everyone else is also. Keep going you're doing amazing already

Cindy Lanning said...

You have started, that is the most difficult part, so be proud of yourself for doing that. We are all behind you. Keep blogging, your are an inspiration to others in the same position. Very proud Kat.

Anonymous said...

Keep at it. I am marking this blog as one of my favorites. You are an inspiration to me. Thank you for having the courage to share. I am wishing you all the best in your en devour.