Everyday is a Winding Road....

So it took me a long time to decide if I was going to show you all this.  These pictures are valid proof of how far I have let myself slide. How much anguish and pain I have been in to eat myself to this point.  I wasn't even going to take these pictures because honestly, I didn't want to face it.  But guess what, I do want to face it.  I am sick of hiding! I am tired of being ashamed.
I AM A WORK IN PROGRESS.  I am walking, no not far, right now it is laps around my apartment, I aim to do at least 5 minutes a day.  Which is better than when I was laying in a depressive vegetative state on the couch.  I am also eating at the most 2500 calories a day. That is at the most 2500 calories most of the time I am aiming to stay between 1500-2000 calories.  I have not had ANY junk food for the past 2 weeks.  I am making changes.  I am trying to follow a low glycemic food list. I am going to add weight lifting and floor exercises to my routine to try and strengthen my back, every other day, and also try to push myself to walk 5 minutes everyday.  I am trying.  I am still not smoking as well.  I also am portioning out and measuring my food.

I AM TRYING.  It doesn't seem like much I know, but it will in time help me lose weight and it will help me right now get on track and prepare for the surgery.  I am still planning on having weight loss surgery.
I am going to start blogging more, so that I can share this journey with people, so that you can take from my story what you will.  I am becoming accountable for my actions.

So here is what a typical day of eating now looks like for me:

Breakfast:
1/2 cup All Bran
1 Iogo yogurt cup
1 medium Granny Smith apple

Lunch:
1 Can of Tuna
1 1/2 cups of Dole classic iceburg salad
1 TBSP Kraft Italian Dressing (Calorie wise)
3 TBSP Unsalted roasted sunflower seeds

Snack:
2 cups of Green beans
2 TBSP of Kraft Italian Dressing (Calorie Wise)

Dinner:
Boneless, Skinless Chicken breast (4 oz)
2 TBSP Homemade Guacamole
Mashed Sweet potato
1 1/2 cups of Dole classic iceburg salad
1TBSP Kraft Italian Dressing (Calorie Wise)
3 TBSP Unsalted roasted sunflower seeds

Snack:
2 cups Baby Carrots
4 TBSP PC Medium Salsa

That is my day usually of eating now.  I also try to drink about 2L of water.  I drink a couple coffees as well with 1% milk, no sugar.  Or I drink decaf Green Tea.  I am going to be cutting caffeine pretty soon because you have to for the surgery anyways and I may as well start now.
I have been watching what I have been eating for approx a month now (27 days).  My boyfriend also got me a Fitbit Flex which has been motivating me to walk a bit more than normal.
But with all that said, here are my pictures.  I was weighed the last time in December just before the holidays and I was 604 lbs.  I do not know what I weigh now.  I am hoping under 600 lbs.  But I will get there. I know it will not happen over night.  I am trying and that is all that matters.

First set of pictures taken 02/19/2015

I am trying, and I will eventually succeed.